Like a river, it flows on forward, never relenting one second from the next except in the vastness of space or perhaps when around such high pressure of gravity (e.g blackhole).

What mysteries the universe holds man may never know.
What mysteries this world holds, man still doesn't know.
What mysteries... we hold in our hearts remain unanswered by ourselves, never acknowledged or brought to the light.

Dear Journal,
Much has happened since I last written anything to you. For starters, I am now 20 years old. 2 long years have passed since then and now but miraculously, I still survive and press on. My heart remained scorned for a long time from Erik but he is no more to me. He did leave a scar but it is not one that I am constantly aware of until I slow down and take a moment to reflect upon myself.

Since then, nothing has changed for my situation here in the U.S; it still remains stagnant and unchanging. Life carries on just as the grains of sand in a hour glass do, slowly...painfully sometimes.

I have grown much since then... mentally. My body has become a bit stronger; I work out more often and haven't stopped doing so for almost a month. Already, I feel some results in my body and its overall performance. I can run a mile in approximate 10 to 12 minutes. I still continue to push myself though, never stopping or relenting in my attempts to perfect my body to its optimal structure. By 25, I want to be in the best shape in my life to tackle on what the future holds for me.

I think... God shows me and is trying to prepare for my wild adventures into the world as I watch different ways to survive extreme climes. Maybe I will have to brave through these form of environments some day. I will absorb all that I can and try not to forget as it could very well cost me my life if I do.

I have still not found anyone. I don't think I truly need to have someone right now anyhow. People are without purpose or cause nowadays; they do not think before making decisions and care only about themselves or the immediate gratification that follows suit. To them, life is nothing more than a joy ride. To me though... it is much more. Many are the people who ride on the possible future I will create but to do so... I must first temper my heart and soul colder and stronger than what it has been. Only then will I be truly able to help people. I will also need to establish a financial backing somehow and make enough money to support myself and my future plans to help people.

Will you, God, help me in this or shall I endure this myself? Either way is fine with me. It'll be much harder if I approach this by myself but... I cannot let fears or doubts poison my mind.

I have tried to forge a piece expressing the rifts of time with what I originally had called "Callisto". Now, I think I shall expand on it and make it a snap shot of the mystical universe that exists only in my own heart and mind. I do not want to make the universe that already exists; I want to carve one that exists in my heart and show it to those around me. They will understand me a bit better if I do.

Many people have left me now. Ben is one of these, a person whom I had a feeling would do so eventually and here it is. He is no longer the person who he was many years ago. I don't blame him as I had denied him all this time. He had probably grown bored of this game and moved on-- probably for the better.

Wolves like myself need no one and nothing-- or so we would like to think. Our hearts are melded from the coldest of steel and ice there is, stronger than even that of a diamond if we will it so.

There are still those who would cling to me but my heart is still full of doubt and suspicion for them too; I know things will not work for Matthew, Adam, even Zephyr. Still, I move along curious of the outcome. Adam and Matthew make nary an attempt to contact me. I don't want to bother either since I get little to no feed back but... this is bad. If we were to all be this way, no one would communicate because we'd anticipate the other to communicate. A truly maddening process. Perhaps... I will try one last time to talk to Adam and see if he wishes to speak to me or not.

What will I say? I don't know.

Tick Tock... time moves forward. Even as I try to summarize my life, it cannot be done. Far too much has happened... even I don't remember everything that has occurred and hasn't at this point. All I know... is much has changed since then and now in as little as 2 years.

We humans have such short lives... but I feel mine will last forever for some reason. I am young now and I feel unstoppable... a common thing that many youths feel till we face facts and finally realize we humans are not as powerful as we think we are.

Tornadoes rip at my life. Angels still fight with Demons. I still am confused as to what I should call myself. I am still Virgin. No love in my life-- probably for the better and I could not care for it now anyhow.

Time still carries on... in a never ending cycle. Where we return to, nobody knows. Maybe we shall all one day wake up from our dreams and return to the blessed Earth whence we came from and escape this hellish prison.

God knows but God tells no one.